Sometimes, i really thought i just wanted to help her.
I thought that by understanding her, I can really assist her and help her become stronger.
But in the end, all my efforts were fruitless!
I didn't want that her to be hurt.
But she'd go all the fuckin' way to go hurt herself yet again and then start regretting it or thinking it's actually nothing to begin with.
I was heartbroken. Heartbroken by how weak I was unable to understand her when I know that she was the one that's hurt most. And i was a freakin' bitch and still didn't bother to take another step into comforting her or understanding her plight.
She's saying she's fine. She's saying she will be fine. She's saying she should be fine.
THE HELL!? You'd expect me to believe some shit like that? I KNOW when someone is just pretending to be fine just so that I will feel better.
Am i supposed to be thankful to someone who'd try to pretend everything's fine just so I won't feel bad about it?
Ok, well. Maybe she's fine. Maybe she's really able to cope.
But it's just "fuck it all!" in the end because I was the weakling who wasn't able to encourage, to help, and comfort someone broken, and still be encouraged, helped and comforted by that person in return.
fuckin' shit..
3 comments:
Dear KC. Beth has a strong and kind heart...Strong enough to rise from any hole and kind enough to dont want to bother anyone with her problems. Though sometimes is difficult to know what exactly is needed to be done and in which time.. sometimes the best thing we can do to encourage our belove friends is to be at thier side. Tell her how you love her, how much do you enjoy seeing her happy, how bright is her smile, how deep are her words and how inspiring is her strenght. Tell her that nothing is big enough to make her feel sad.. because nothing is strong enough to blind her heart. Tell her that no matter to hard way, there will be always a new begining.. thas she has friends, friends that now of her value, that trust her and above all that love much more than any pain.
Please tell her these words.. and be at her side, because you have been granted with one gift that we cant enjoy.. to be closer to her :)
GATO!!! Thank you soooooo very much.. really, from the bottom my heart. I don't know what else to say, but i think i already have an answer to everything because of what you said.
Thanks alot. Really.
My Dear Lady!!! no need to thank me at all.. U know I am always with you :)... and i will be always at your side... no matter how far I am
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