Realization

The past two days can be summed up with one word: fatigue.
But it was fatigue for good fun. and fatigue psychologically, i guess. After years of waiting (literally), I finally got to meet up, in real life, with a close friend, whom I have not failed to communicate with every single day of my life through electronic means. Although it was kinda tiring travelling around and staying up late,

We met two days ago at Tokyo Disneyland. I was still wondering what on earth I should say when we first meet. Do I have to say the conventional "はじめまして" (hajimemashite) which everyone says when they meet someone for the first time?

My pondering was short-lived.
Our eyes met.

まい：ちっちゃい！！(chicchai!! aka puny!!)
Me： 。。。 *speechless*

Beth then came to a realization.
I.....am really......THAT...puny.
And i didn't even have to say anything like "pleased to meet you" or "hello" or anything. Common sense told me to respond with "ちがうよ！！！"(chigau yo!!! aka That's not true!!!), which was followed with continuous offensive exclamations from Mai that I am "short" or just simply..."small".

But honestly, I SWEAR it was because she was wearing high-heels......

After sending Mai off (to New Zealand) at Narita Airport last evening, Beth has been hit with sudden loneliness. And, surprisingly...homesickness, as well.

As she took it all out and said, "行きたくない。"(ikitakunai aka I don't wanna go.)to me, I was kinda jealous she could actually say it out to someone at the airport just minutes before she flew off. And, I would never never EVER say, "If you don't wanna go, just stay." I would say something equivalent to "You'll be fine. Don't give up!" or something of the sort.

*Homesickness & Loneliness*
I cannot help but admit that somewhere at the bottom of my heart, I wouldn't want to leave for Japan (Apr 2008 & Jan 2010). However, if I were to say "I don't wanna go...", to someone, anyone, who sent me off at Changi Airport when I was about to fly off to Tokyo, I am just so afraid that someone (especially my parents) might say

"You don't have to go if you don't want to. *with smileys*"

THAT, instead of some encouraging words, would certainly be the LAST thing i'll ever want to hear as I make my way towards the departure gates. My dear friends currently away from home and studying or working overseas...it is true, am i not right??