Monday 30 November 2009

「進路を決めましたか?」

先週は来年の学校のスタッフに「進路を決めましたか?」と聞かれた。

まあ、もちろん、来年はどの学校に入るかとはもう決まっているが、スタッフは専門学校を卒業してから、何をするつもりかと質問しているのだ。

正直に、今まではなんとなく進路について考えたことがあるけど、質問されたのは初めてで、一応ベスは「できれば、日本で就職したいけど、大学に入るのも希望している」と答えた。

でもさ・・・音楽って、音大はあるけど、それはクラシカル系だから、ベスが勉強したいのと ちょっと ・・・いや、 まったく 違うんでしょう。進学のはやはり、やめたほうがいいかな。てーか、日本の大学って4年制だよね。7年間日本で勉強するのがちょっと想像できないかな。卒業する時にはもう27?28?ちょっとむりかな。

というが、日本で就職できるかな~

ちなみに、音楽ではシンガポールでは絶対どんな前途も見えない。音楽なら、シンガポールでなければ、海外はどこでもシンガポールより発達してるとは否めない事実である。学んだ日本語を活用したいなら、就職はいちおう日本が一番チョイスでしょう。

将来が見えない・・・まあ~一応、専門学校に入ってから考えよう。

Saturday 7 November 2009

IVF Boom

Through debates in high school, through ethical lectures in college, and now even a whole topic on it on my Japanese Language textbook, it just goes to show how the world perceives the subject of human cloning and related technology, like IVF and etc, as something interesting, if not, something which is more disadvantageous than beneficial.

Everyone talks about ethics, human emotions, the superb technology with different viewpoints from all directions.

IMO, anything that deals with the creation of human life by a human life through superficial and artificial means just doesn't seem right. NOT because of religion. NOT because of ethics. BUT, simply because......there's a flaw with the TECHNOLOGY itself! The whole balance of the world, of the human race is at stake.

Let's just state for example, a sterile couple undergoes IVF in order to get a baby. The baby is also at a high risk of being sterile, and when he/she grows up, has to make use of IVF in order to get a baby of his/her own. That baby's baby may also grow up to be infertile. It's just a vicious circle which knows no end. The whole human population would one day, be totally dependent on IVF and maybe in the near future, some technology which is more advanced. And eventually, a day might come when human cloning no longer seem incorrect in any form.

If no limitations are made on the free usage of IVF and other similar technologies, it is absolutely safe for me to say that the human race has to brace itself for a IVF boom. Sure, good thing for the medical industry. Loads of money flooding in. Humans would have claimed to have been successful in conquering the way of nature.

And, all at the risk of disrupting the balance of human life on Earth.

Saturday 31 October 2009

ラッキーと思わない?

「日本・・・寒い・・・いやだ・・・」
「What?何言ってる?日本いい国だよ!(笑)Don't you think you are very lucky to be in Japan?」
「ん・・・。」

友人の冗談の質問に真剣に考えさせられた。
実は、「日本にいられるって本当によかったね。」と何度も自分の頭に繰り返して考えてたが、今日は新宿行きの電車に乗っていた間、友だちの質問を思い出し、電車の外側を眺めながら、その質問の答えを尋ね求めた。

「本当にラッキーかな?」
「ここは本当に自分の国よりいいの?」
「何がいいの?」
「自分の国にはない物が日本にあるの?」
「日本にあるものは自分の国では見つけられないの?」

ひとつの質問に次の質問が生じ、質問だらけで、相模大野から新宿まで50分かかったのに、答えは

なかなか、なかった。

「なんて難しい質問だなあ」と、電車を降りて、駅を出て、

日差しが眩しかった。

どこにいても、太陽は同じ。人間は同じ。私は同じ。

ただ、

心が一つ。

心のいる場は一つしかない。そこはやはり、家だ。

Saturday 17 October 2009

お金のない危機感

最近バイト始めた。毎週ほぼ毎日もバイトの予定が入ってる。
自分の身体が病気がちなので、長時間立ちっぱなしとか、体力が必要な仕事は自分に合わないって知っているから、バイトは英語教師に決まった。

でも、バイト、今、始めたのは早すぎるかしら?

12月にある日本語能力試験で1級を受けることにした。合格できるには自信が全然ない。
ストレスはたまってる。バイトしなくても勉強する時間はもう限ってるのに、バイトを始めた。

なぜかというと、私はお金がないことに緊張感を持っているからだ。
最近いろいろでお金の使いすぎ、来年引越しや新学期の費用でお金は貯めないといけない。
一応国費留学生なんだけど、毎月もらっている生活費はぎりぎり生活が維持できるけれど、急にお金を使う必要があるなら、現在持っているお金は絶対に不足だ。

一人暮らし、しかも、海外で一人暮らし・・・
自分の国と家にいるの良さはやっと・・・
わかるようになった。

Tuesday 21 July 2009

Busy eating good stuff...

Recently, i think i've been busy eating good stuff...LOL!

The university girls from my school's free-talk session brought me to this dessert shop near Nishi-Shinjuku and decided that they'd treat me to that Red-bean uhh...puff? bun? with fresh cream inside. It was interestingly combined with the ever-so-bitter maccha (green tea) that Japanese drink during tea ceremony. The tea doesn't taste bitter, which i first feared, after eating the red-bean "pie" because it's sweet. =D



Then, last Saturday, we decided to go all the way to Chiba (Tsudanuma) to meet up with Ricchan and her lovely boyfriend(?fiance? lolx), Takumi, who took us for a drive, treated us to pasta, then brought us to a beach with water dyed in an amazingly disgusting brown colour.....The water is clean though, just that the colour is uhh...yucky~ >_<




Then, we headed over to her "house", don't ask me why i quoted her "house"...just that...oh well...we went over to her father's property to have dinner. Apparently, Ricchan's dad ordered the most expensive sushi he could find on the menu as a treat.
That whole set cost around ten thousand yen, if i'm not wrong. It's all good stuff...uhh..not GOOD...it's all PREMIUM STUFF!! Walk into a normal sushi shop and you'd have to eat ONE piece of those at around 300 yen.



Oh boy...how do i seem, eating to my fill for the past week...HAHA~

Tuesday 16 June 2009

The "weirdo" season on the train begins...

Summer...in Japan...

As summer comes, girls' clothing naturally become thinner and ... less. That's when the amount of gropers on the trains increase. Even if a girl's arse doesn't get groped, some guy may have a secret camera hidden somewhere and may take a picture from underneath a girl's skirt.

"Beer Garden" sessions also increase in summer. There will be lots of drunkards on trains and train platforms, naturally. Some drunkard might "accidentally" push someone onto a train track. Or, in my case, some old drunk man approached me on the train yesterday and started talking about the sky, the clouds, my shoes and his age......If he didn't get off at the next station, i would have gotten off.

The number of weird people increases during this season......Heat does strange things to people, huh?

Friday 12 June 2009

Tokyo from the Top

Since the weather was so good, I went to the Tokyo Metropolitan Office Building Tower to get a view of Tokyo from the top.





Tuesday 2 June 2009

粽!

中国人のクラスメートから粽をもらいました!!すごくおいしくて。。。なつかしいなあ~って思って、ありがとうね!トウインさん!笑

端午节已过了。不过~班上的中国同学今早送了一个粽子给我!哈哈!我不必到中华街去花十几块钱买粽子吃~
谢谢トウイン同学!


Sunday 24 May 2009

DAD! MUM! DEAL WITH IT!!

GEEZ~ I AM GOING TO STAY IN JAPAN FOR AT LEAST 3 YEARS. DEAL WITH IT! HERE I AM, TRYING FREAKING HARD TO ACCUSTOM MYSELF TO LIFE HERE, MAKE MYSELF EXCEL IN WHATEVER I AM DOING, TRYING TO THINK OF NEW WAYS TO MAKE THINGS EASIER! I DON'T HAVE TIME TO BE HOMESICK......AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!! I DON'T WANT TO BE HOMESICK!

MAKE YOURSELF UNDERSTAND DAMMIT! LOVE DOESN'T CHANGE OVERNIGHT! EVEN IF I DON'T SAY I AM HOMESICK, IT DOESN'T MEAN I AM NOT!!

HERE I AM TRYING TO BE STRONG, OR AT LEAST APPEAR STRONG, YOU'D EXPECT ME TO SHOW EVERY SINGLE SIGN OF WEAKNESS JUST SO I CAN DO WHAT? WORRY SOMEONE?!

I AM BUSY. OR AT LEAST, KEEPING MYSELF BUSY! I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANY FREE TIME TO THINK ABOUT STUPID THINGS LIKE "I MISS HOME..."

BEING HOMESICK IS SOMETHING THAT IS PERSISTENT FOR LIKE 24 HOURS A DAY, SEVEN DAYS A WEEK, 365 DAYS A YEAR! THIS! DOES! NOT! CHANGE!!! I DON'T HAVE TO SAY THIS! DO I?!!

I AM MAKING MYSELF STRONGER DAY BY DAY! I AM MORE DEPENDENT ON MYSELF DAY BY DAY!

DAD! MUM! YOU ARE THE ONES WHO SHOULD SEEK YOUR OWN ADVICE! SAYING I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOUR FEELINGS?? WHAT SHIT IS THIS?! YOU ARE THE ONES WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS AT ALL!!!! YOU ARE....AT H-O-M-E~~~ YOU CAN FIND SUPPORT AMONG YOUR OWN FAMILY OR FRIENDS! YOU CAN'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ME A THOUSAND MILES AWAY! GOSH!! WHAT CAN I DO!? NOTHING!

EVERYTIME YOU TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU CAN'T GET USED TO ME NOT BEING AT HOME, YOU JUST SHOW HOW WEAK YOU ARE! AND YOU'D THINK THAT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL GOOD????!!!!!! YOU JUST MAKE ME~!! MAKE M-E ME FEEL TERRIBLE! MAKING YOUR DAUGHTER WHO'S OVERSEAS ALONE FEEL LIKE THAT, IT'S THE WORST THING YOU CAN EVER DO!

I AM MAKING EVERY EFFORT TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I AM HAVING NO PROBLEMS GETTING USED TO LIFE HERE, AND THAT EVERYTHING'S FINE...BUT, YOU ARE NOT TRYING TO MAKE YOURSELF GET USED TO YOUR LIFE BACK HOME AT ALL!!!

ALL I'M ASKING! IS FOR YOU GUYS TO GROW STRONGER! GET SUPPORT FROM YOUR FAMILY! YOUR BROTHERS, YOUR SISTERS, YOUR FRIENDS! OR BEST! MAKE YOURSELF STRONGER BY YOURSELF! AND DON'T TRY NOT TO CAUSE INCONVENIENCE TO ANYONE ELSE! GET USED TO IT! DEAL WITH IT! I AM STAYING PUT HERE FOR A LONG TIME! AND NOTHING'S GOING TO CHANGE THIS FACT!

(i held on to the SHIFT key tightly throughout this whole rant. i am not angry. i am just frustrated at how i'm trying so damn hard to be stronger, but my parents are just not trying to improve things on their own side. sorry for the rant.)

Monday 11 May 2009

it's summer....

Japan is getting hot......and it will reach peak temperatures in June and July, i guess. The school students are all changing into their summer uniforms today, because it's like just...so warm nowadays.

I've been just too busy to update my blog. There are quizzes and tests everyday at school. Most of the time, it's just go to school, take quizzes, have lessons, come home, make dinner and tomorrow's lunch (bento) to bring to school, study, do homework, then sleep. There is literally no space for a little time for myself on weekdays.

There was a lunch reception for Singaporeans when President SR Nathan came to visit Japan yesterday. we had great food, SINGAPOREAN food. lol.


Fried Pork with green pepper, that was my dinner last night. And the cheapest dumplings i can find in town. They cost like 198yen with 30 in a pack!That's the curry i made tonight. Curry squid with pork, tomatoes, green pepper. It actually tastes good, unexpectedly.

Saturday 25 April 2009

Some nice pictures taken so far~



















Electricity and Water don't mix

Electricity + water = disaster

it was 8:30pm at night. temperature is as low as 11 deg celsius.

Well...I wanted to pay my electrical bill for the month. So, i asked senpai to go along with me because i've no idea how to pay a bill at a convenience store. And so, i slipped the bill into my bag and got on the bicycle.

Then, on the way to our destination, i realized it was drizzling...then, big drops started falling...then, it turned into a shower.

And so, we reached 7-Eleven after about 5 mins in the rain. And as i reach to get my bill from my bag, it wasn't there! (I dropped it somewhere)

So...senpai and I had to walk our way back the way we came, in the rain and in the dark. We found it about halfway back.

And so...we took a drenched electricity bill to the store clerk at 7-Eleven, and she was really cute (funny) when i saw her face as she said "Arigatou gozaimasu" while we were leaving the store. Lol~ I wonder if she's gonna hang my bill out to dry.

Thank goodness a senpai was there to help me out. I'm grateful~ I just pray i don't fall sick from the rain. I'm having a headache, but maybe it's because i'm just sleepy. I shall sleep.

Thursday 23 April 2009

Fried mutton and vege!!


这是清炒羊肉和菜。我只用了盐,没加其他调味料。不过,都很好吃!鲜甜可口。可见这里的东西都多么新鲜和富高质量。这菜到底叫什么名我根本不知道,日文念为“他菜”。要不是他以99元出售,我看我是不会买的。今天的晚餐还有一些类似小笼包的水饺。在超市试吃的时候觉得很好吃就把它买了下来。

My dinner just consists of some fried mutton and vegetables which i have no idea what it is...i didn't use anything except salt! And stuff just tastes great and fresh~ I'm really liking it here. Got some dumplings too~ The samples at the supermarket tasted really good, so i bought them. =D

Wednesday 22 April 2009

Karaoke is cheap

850 plus yen for 3 hours of karaoke and free flow drinks for 1 person each! I didn't think i could find such a deal in Tokyo! Well...it isn't supposed to be so cheap if we went to the normal karaoke lounges. You would think the Japanese don't have Chinese songs...but boy~ How wrong was I~! They have a whole large bank of English, Chinese, Japanese and Korean songs...(I even found Singaporean songs haha!)

Compared to any other place i've been to in Singapore...it is waaaaay more high-tech, waaaaaaaaay less fault-free, the service is waaaaaaay better, there are waaaaaaaaaay more songs...and this is just a small karaoke lounge opened by some person...i wonder how the larger ones are like. For about the same price I'm paying, i'm not getting the same kind of service back in Singapore, LOL~! Nor anywhere else, i'm sure. The only bad thing is...the rooms reeks of cigarette smell left behind by previous customers.

Well...then we went to have dinner at a what they call an "izakaya", where customers usually order finger foods and drink... it costs twice as much as our karaoke session *_* Food is luxury...lol. And as usual, this place also reeks of cigarette smell. But this time, we were actively taking in second-hand smoke, because smoking IS allowed.

Saturday 18 April 2009

Shinjuku Imperial Garden

There was a school excursion to Shinjuku Imperial garden which was about 15 mins walk away from school.
Some teachers and classmates~


These are some of my classmates






Friday 17 April 2009

煮。吃。


这是今晚的晚餐~!

最近,我每天都在下厨。快熟面也好,乌冬也好,煎蛋也好,煮汤也好,炒菜也好,香肠面包也好,总而言之,最近三餐都不在外面解决。一切都由自己准备。我也渐渐开始喜欢下厨了耶~哈哈!好吃的好吃,不好吃也得吃,自己做的料理由自己调味,照着自己的食量准备,不必多问也不必多考虑。三餐温饱就行了。

不过,我倒还没煮过难吃的料理耶。。。哈哈!也许我还有些烹饪的潜能吧!要不是现在自己一个人生活,我看我是不会自动去下厨煮菜吧~

Thursday 16 April 2009

DINNER TIME!


I ACTUALLY COOKE RICE WITH A POT!!! haha~ unbelievable...and it wasn't burnt!
Bought some mushies from Sanwa and stir fried it with oyster sauce, and did up the best dish i'm best at, Tomato Eggs...(the only dish i can make...)

IT TASTES OK!! ok? I CAN COOK! ...a little...

This is my lunch for tomorrow's school~ Bento at school is too expensive.